Sumandar bhi chahe

Sumandar bhi chahe to Pyaas Meri
Ab Bhuja nahi sakta
Ilawa uske zindagi mein Koi
Ab aa nahi sakta
Usse kehdo ke itni berukhi
Karne ka faida nahi koi
Jitna bhi usse bhoolna chahoon
Mein Bhula nahi sakta

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a lot of ???????????????

still 2-3 days are more to be with frineds ..but i missing a lot from now onwards ..feeling alone....want to weep but not able found alone place to weep or any reason to weep.....sometimes think that my this condition is due to my own faults....this whole is due to my all supplies...but still not believable that i make such big mistakes...don't know all these things are due to study or else...i m not getting it that i m running from study or study from me???......

also missing something in life..but don't know what i m missing..always founding some emptiness in life ....so getting stresses n stressed ...so km out frm this all sadness decided to write smthing here...2nd main problem for my sadness is that my fear abt my the worst communication with any one....except my friends no one can understand me , my feelings.....even thinking that it will be very difficut for me to clear any interview only due to my communication skills...i don't know y not did any effort in all these 7 years to improve communication skills???perhaps always went 4 to achieve purposeless targets....but still have the believe that these purposeless targets can give me a new look of life..a beautiful look above all......

now after somedays will leave the college..where to go in life still not clear..a point of ?????? its true that will get a job may be after delay of some days.....but always arise a question in mind that is it the final motto of life??? its true time being it is biggest need of my life......but mind always say to do something different...what shoud i do something different, not getting able to recognise it.........

i hope after complettion of exams all these waves running at a very high frequency will slow down n i may be able to recognise purpose of life..........god please help me to choose a right path for my life....also please help me in exams (bhagwan g checking ache se karva dena)..............also god give me a power to achieve my real motto of life to change the corrupt sytem of society and government..........

Love sometimes is so confusing

Isn't it strange that all of a sudden the person you have loved for ages, is somewhat of the second priority to the one who just entered your life. Does that make us a "cheater" or a humanbeing who just can't control his or her urges?

I believe a person changes from time to time, but what makes life so complicated is when you really have the element of guilt within you. So "lucky" are those people if i may call them that who can just get away with loving people and not thinking about someone's feeling. But then again they are not that much of a human for that are they? That's probably the difference between us humans and animals that when we do something which we aren't supposed to, we feel the guilt. And thats how it should be, the element of guilt should be so high in a person to not be trying his "luck" on others on someone else's expense...............